and it's over, but it just started...

lessthan_beth @ 2004-12-27T18:21:00

2004-12-27T23:21:48Z

hey.. new journal.. add it

shestarry_eyed

lessthan_beth @ 2004-12-24T19:14:00

2004-12-25T00:19:05Z

yeeaaahh......schools out....hung out with maura dana katie and amanda that night.. yesterday me and sam went to see christmas with the kranks..then we cooked and amanda, michaela, maura, dana, chels, and katie came over.. fun fun. love them. maura had me for secret santa, she got me an awesome scarf from ae to match my green clogs, the montana sweatshirt from ae i wanted wicked bad, and napoleon dynamite :). so happyy...love herr! then todayy i went to my aunts for a little, then went to jp's housee... he got me OAR any time now...and i love ittt:) and his mom got me a cool pen thing which makes me happy. and yea..now im bored..leaving..merry christmas.. peace

it's crazy, i'm thinkin...

2004-12-20T20:32:37Z

ahahah stayed home today from school.. so did jp and maura! :) so basically i woke up during 3rd period and laid in my bed for awhile... and then eventually i played outside in the snow with taffy :D.. tomororw im going to the zoo for history/capstone so im missing geom, bio, and history! :)!! then i have school wednesday.. and then vacationnn :) i love my life hah...
so now im drinking hot chocolate and reading old convos with the woman beater.. what was i thinking haha. ok with that said im feeling wonderful. except for my throat. but im off to watch tv :) peace outt

no way november will see our goodbyes
when it comes to december it's obvious why
no one wants to be alone at christmas time

lessthan_beth @ 2004-12-19T11:35:00

2004-12-19T16:45:24Z

ewww i just had the worse yogurt everrr! french vanilla! so gross. but umm. anyway the weekend was really good. thursday night we had an oc party!! so fun haha, love that showw... and after school that dayy i went to the mall with sammijo and my brooo...that was funn.
then friday school was the usual..then after school went home with jp. and ate subway and watched tv..and then he had to leave for his game..so i went to danas house. then amanda and katie picked us up and we went to the mall, then to maccaroni grille, then to babysit katies cousin.
saturday i went to my aunts house with jay because she got a new puppyyy..the taco bell dog! :)! and then umm oh yes came home got ready etc, went to jps house..hung out for a little.. then dana and amanda picked us up and we went to see spanglish..WORST MOVIE EVER. 2 1/2 hours long haha. so bad. then we drove to visit michaela at work.. free donuts :I..then dropped off jp because he had a game againn.. picked up katie went to danas.. picked up michaela after work.. etc.. then eventually went to the hockey game.. then amanda took us all to wendys. then came homee.
noww im off to wrap presents and do homeworkkkk. peace out :)

"you don't know what you do
everytime you walk into the room..."

its not bethhh

2004-12-16T02:12:02Z

well this is sam...haha...well i am doin the favor of updatin for my number 4 girl beth :)...i have no clue what to say...lets think....we had a bondin convo...and i figured out that she is one of those friend that u will have for like ever...me and her have become better friend over the last year then i ever have with anyone eles..she is my homeboy...haha..i have taken a plastic water bottle for her..haha...whatever it is cool..but that is all i have to say..but beth when u see this...just to let u know...thanks...for bein my best friend..:)...love ya girly..

love ya
samma
:)

i know a place where we can carry onnnnnnn

2004-12-14T02:57:34Z

so uhh i had an XL iced coffee from tims tonight and it took me like 2 hours to drink..but it made me wicked happy..and i have no hw due tomorrow :D. madd lot due...wednesday..and!! OOO! im going to the zoo next wednesday hehe that makes me smile. umm and i hate day 1 and 3s!
noww im gonna go to bedddd because i was up late last night doing a fucking project. peace out kids :)

"the road of life is rocky,
and you may stumble too,
so while you point your fingers,
someone else is judgin' you..."

stir it upppp

2004-12-13T03:13:12Z

yayoooo! this weekend has been madd awesomeeee.. after school friday maura came over and we ordered chinese, then visited michaela at the grind and russ etc were all there so that was cool to see them for a few. then maura and i headed over to katies.. then picked up dana and went to the hockey game. after the gamee.... me katie dana maura jp went to danas.. then amanda came by.. fun fun
saturday morning i had to be at the school for 7 for breakfast with santa.. chilled with dana katie and sam mostly.. then came home and napped! then sam came over and we went to dereks with chels, jp, matt, ryan, dan and whoever else i forgot. and sam and i realized that if we were ever stranded on an island with them they'd never keep us alive hahaaa.
today! i had a fucking fam xmas party and that sucked so much. then i picked up michaela and we went to church and ccd. madd fun. only not so much. andddddd right now im going to bed bc yea, school tomorrow. last full week until break :) peace out

every little thing, gonna be all right

2004-12-07T23:18:51Z

holllaaa!! laguna tonight..last episodddde! kill me. i love the oc though even if ray and ryan make fun of meee because i cryy over it...haha dana and i are diehards...we have the icons..we sing california all the time..we watch season 1 a lot. haha . and. aww i dont want laguna to end :( marathon starts in 20 mins though

um..i actually have english homework to do...but.....OH YEAH! i love michaela and derek seeing as how we're losers together..and im rambling..so im going to gooo. peaceee kids

preacher man don't tell me heaven is under the earth
I know you don't know what life is really worth
is not all that glitters in gold and
half the story has never been told
so now you see the light,
stand up for your right. Come on...

past the point of trying

2004-12-04T05:32:15Z

dudee! madd cold haha. not important though. anyway. funnn day! school, whatev, pictures, then maura came overrr! we went to burger kingg because.. its burger king.. then derek picked us up and we went to the hockey game. so many people theree.. very fun :). then derek brought maura and i to ryans with matt, dana, chels, and katie...also very funnnn! but i missed michaela and samantha :(
and things are starting to get better in a way... some drama in school, not involving me but ray and i are gonna layeth the smacketh downnnn hehe :) jk but yeah. im pissed about that. but. yeah. also ive decided to stop caring so much about certain people, lifes better not caring, theres no point when they're gonna be stupid anyway. and fucking two-faced shady peoplee. decided to stop even bothering with themmm also. and i realized people change a madd lot, but whatev.. last year people were different from this year, people i used to know really well i dont even talk to. im done caring though. but yeah! kinda late. to update and such. im gonna hit the sheets :D peace

"I don't need no walls around me.
And I don't need no drugs to calm me.
I have seen the writing on the wall.
Don't think I need any thing at all.
No. Don't think I need anything at all.
All in all it was all just the bricks in the wall.
All in all it was all just the bricks in the wall."

lessthan_beth @ 2004-11-30T22:05:00

2004-12-01T03:13:59Z

yayooo

happy december tomorrow :D ! yay for 93.3 and decorating cookies with my 6 best friends soon! andd hooray forrr i feel it in my fingerssss i feel it in my toesss christmas is all around ussssss :)

and this.is.how.we.do featuring bells by maura y bethy....oh and i love sammi :)

yuhpayce1

Hello.
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?
Come on, now.
I hear you're feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.
Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts:
Can you show me where it hurts?
There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're sayin'.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I can't explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

lessthan_beth @ 2004-11-27T10:39:00

2004-11-27T15:47:49Z

yyyyooooo
havent really updated in foreverrrr .. everyone probably heard about my mauraaaa so i wont bother. but yeahh that was interesting coming home wednesday, getting a phone call saying my best friend was in the hospital... not that fun. so of course the rest of us are flipping out because mike and katie were in the car, and some other kid too.. so me chels and michaela went to danas, emily took us to see maura at the hospital... then jeff took me dana and drew to wendys and mike took chels and michaela there.. then back to danas.

next day was thanksgiving ... picked up chelsea and went to the football game with everyoneeee. even though it was raining it was still really fun, and it probably would have been madd boring if it didnt rain anyway, so its all gooddd. yeah then hung out with my family all day, then at 730 i went to visit maura with amanda and cait.

yesterdayyyy i visited my mauron again.. brought brownies this time! michael came and brought roses and it was the cutest thing everrr. then katie and amanda came byyy and we watched love actually because its the cutest movie in the world basically, andd yeah i love it. but then michael left for work, and amanda went to npc, so it was just me maura and katie.. we went to katies house and listened to 93.3 bc its all christmas music! then mr. michael and drew came over and yes .. hung aroundd. fun.

todayy idk what im doing yet but i must go get ready.. maura got to shower today shes extremely happy:) OHH and dana should probably fucking come home now :) i miss youuuuuuuouououuu

but im breaking down now that...

2004-11-22T21:39:57Z

yeahhh i think today was really bad for everyoneee. that sucks... school should probably enddd

and i was in the middle of updating but then shit got worse ha im out peace

lessthan_beth @ 2004-11-20T23:56:00

2004-11-21T05:06:39Z

hiii:) this weeks overrrr! longest school week ever... thursday night i went toooo varsity review with sammi and vanessa and dana came tooo... last night i went to see the polar express with matthew! definitely best movie ever and i wanna go see it againnnnn. then i went to his casa for a little...today mauron came over and we went to danas with sam and watched THE OC!!!!!!!! and the prince and me. um tomorrow i have to go to danas with these boys z and jeff to do a history project.. and church with patty at night..

then theres only 3 school days this week which is extremelyyyy good ... long weekend :)... huge english project with kyle and dana. sucks. and now im going to bedd... peace

black tears are falling down her face and i am wrong
black tears are falling and she wont say what i've done
she's sitting here beside me, and she is gone
black tears are falling, falling

remember long ago
together laughing loving
oh so long ago
when we were buying something
life was simple then
but she's not happy now and i
don't feel anything
her lips are moving
i am mesmerized by tiny lies
i'm watching as the shapes are drawing slowly from her eyes

:)

2004-11-17T21:47:46Z

hola! :) this is probably the meanest journal entry ill write ever, but hey its necessaryy. and you know, im not even mad, im actually laughing. so dont read this if you dont want to, but some of you obviously should.

maura, dana, katie, michaela, sam, and chelsea are my best friends. and they are the most amazing people i know, and i love them all so much. we never fight, argue, or are mad at each other.. and i have no regrets with befriending them all, except that it took me so long to do so. this past year these girls have taught me what friendship was...and apparently until freshman year and part of this year, i had no idea what it was.. i thought i did... but i was wrong. up until last year, i was friends with the people i had known from elementry school.. i felt like i had to be, because they were the only people i really knew. i was scared to leave them and i was scared to be alone. finally i had to...i learned a lot about the people i had known my whole life.. i learned that they weren't the people i thought they were...most of them were twofaced or shady, a couple of them are really great people who i've just drifted from. either way, i found out best friends dont fight... best friends dont choose boys over each other.. best friends dont talk about each other... and best friends will always be a part of you.

now obviously, sophomore year..a lot has changed since kindergarten..and none of my friends from then remain...but over the course of this past school year i have made new friends that showed me what friendship really is. all of the parties, the hangouts, the bonfires ( :D ), the shopping, the movies, the talks...and the unconditional love that i have for these people have become a part of who i am today, and i do not regret one thing in my life right now, and i could not be happier.

when people talk about my best friends, i get so mad... because nobody knows them the way we know each other.. and if you did you'd have nothing but good things to say. i can say without hesitating that no one will ever be as amazing as these 6 girls are... and no one will ever replace them. they are all so nice and caring.. they're always there for you... they're the definition of friend. i dont know how anyone can sit there and judge them by what they wear or how they look. yeah, sorry, we all like shopping.. you're right though that gives you the right to call us preppy bitches.. because we like clothes. oh, and we wear skirts in the winter... which is all the more reason to call us sluts. seriously, grow the fuck up and leave us alone, i was nice this whole entry up until now because i do not want to for ONE single second, stoop down to your fucking low-ass level. go ahead be immature twofaced shady bitches some more, i dont know your IP address or anythng... leave more comments talking about my best friends. or, instead of wasting your time reading about MY life that you are NOT a part of, go out and try making some friends yourself, you need them. and i feel bad for you, i really do. i hope someone out there can actually show you what a friend really is, and set you straight. all i know is i wont be that person.

so basically... dana, maura, michaela, katie, chels and sam... i love you all so much :) dont let what anyone says effect you... we are still the clog crew, the sweater sisters, the tag fags, and the abercrombie girls for life :)

and also.... i made some awesome friends this summer, who im so grateful for because i love them all just as much... and yeah theyre freshmen, got something to say about that too? fuck you- sammi, vanessa, and sam i love you all sooooo much :) fo' evuh.. heh

if your gonna bitch, dont comment, no one cares

<3 beth

lessthan_beth @ 2004-11-14T19:41:00

2004-11-15T00:51:06Z

woww what a good weekendd :D. i forgot what i did thursday... wait no i went to the mall with dana maura and katie! i love them! it was wicked fun, i got new diamond earrings..the same ones katie and dana got. maura got white clogs... the last pair at american eagle :(... then friday was school, the usual boring stuff. maybe its almost over??

after school, jay took maura and i to mcdonalds for some double cheeseburgers heh then dropped us off at mauras place. chilled, mike and nick picked us up and ran some errands, then back to mauras and hung out with them for a while. then there was a bad part of the night..but ill skip over to the good part.. chels came by, then we headed to danas with katie and michaela :). hung out for awhile, michaela had to leave because she was working the next morning.. the rest of us slept over.. i was on the phonee for a longg time, then chilled with chels and maura cuz dana and katie fell asleep.

woke up the next morning and it was snowing, looked out danas window and there was the water and houses covered in snow..so pretty..hung out for awhile watching the OC season 1 then mi madre picked me up and took me home. chilled for awhile then got readyyy. went to katies house, then to see a movie with some boysss. after the movie went back to katies with them hung out and stuff....thats enoughhhh

today i woke up late! it was fun.. and did homework.. then i went out with casey and maura :) and now im hereee. not wanting to go to school tomorrowww .. but im looking forward to thursday! OC night! and fridayy out with matt! but yea.. until then.. peace outtt

you and i got something
but its all and then its nothing to me
and i got my defenses
when it comes to your intentions for me
and we wake up in the breakdown
of the things we never thought we could be
im not the one who broke you
im not the one you should fear
we got to move you darling
i thought i lost you somewhere
but you were never really ever there at all...

lessthan_beth @ 2004-11-10T04:55:00

2004-11-10T21:58:00Z

holla!!

this school week has been incredibly long! but no school tomorrow...after school today, eboard meeting, then maura came over. we're just chillinnnnn....i have an appt at 7, then out with dana and maura!!! yayy. tomorrow....mall with them after maura gets out of work. that bitch. and then OC party at my house!!! so excited. and a little message ... if you are not my friend, stop reading this, it doesnt concern you. thanks :-)

~uno :D

uno

2004-11-07T19:54:30Z

holla
this weekend has been fun .. yesterday dana maura and i went to the mall! as usual... lots of fun. after that jay and em picked us up and brought us back to danas, hung out there with steve for a few hours, watching the OC season 1. maura and i wanted to keep watching but SOME people do not appreciate good shows.

now im off to mauras, then church... then the daily grind with her and michaela. school tomorrow. kill me. palabra. uno.

i used to hurry a lot, i used to worry a lot,
i used to stay out till the break of the day.
oh that didn't get it, it was a waste of time, i quit it,
i just couldn't carry on that way.
oh i did some damage, i know it's true.
didn't know i was so lonely till i found you.asdfghjklmissyou:(

i will wait for you, i will wait for no one but youuuu

2004-11-06T14:59:29Z

holllaaa! love how every saturday morning 2 of my aunts and 1 of my uncles comes over at like 8am to visit my gramma. and. every time, they wake me uppp and i get very angry. but its ok because theyre cool. and they always bring good food heh heh hehhhh love being obese.

yesterday was friday!! in spanish we just did like easy stuff, and began writing our books:). english i absoultely hate but it was easy because we had to finish our Poe in 5. capstone, did absolutely nothing, then lunch with katie!!!! love her! after lunch chelsea and i walked arounddd and hung out in the library. algebra! ugh ha. dont remember what we did. learned. stuff. THENNNN after school jay and i ran errandss.. bank and dunkin donuts because he would not take me to tim hortons because he is mean.

last nighttt maura and i went to ruby tuesdays! and it took then 1 hour and 15 to get our freakin food and we kept being distracted by the waitress uglyness haha. oops. and after, we were waiting for her mom to pick us up because we missed the movie we were gonna go to, and atleast 8 guys from the army came out and talked to us. and were asking where our boyfriends were and why we were outside. we were like WELL since we're 15 we dont have a car to sit in. they like ran and said call us in 3 years. hah suckssss. after that we hung out at mauras. the usual. the dungeon. whatta ya gonna do ... im out yuh payce1

Satellite in my eyes
Like a diamond in the sky
How I wonder.
Satellite strung from the moon
And the world your balloon
Peeping tom for the mother station.
Winter's cold spring erases
And the calm away by the storm is chasing
Everything good needs replacing
Look up, look down all around, hey satellite

newsflash!

2004-11-05T02:06:20Z

hi its beth again.. just thought i would let you all know that sam estrella is the coolest person in the entire world!!

some thing i stole from cait

2004-11-04T20:43:59Z

[13 Random things you like]
1. my friends
2. taco bell
3. music
4. shopping
5. taffy!! :)
6. kobe hating dana
7. stanley hating maura
8. hanging out in homeroom haha
9. palabraaaa :)
10. food
11. hot guys
12. boys from abercrombie and fitch
13. oh yeah . hot boys who wear abercrombie and fitch :)

[12 Favorite Movies]
1. the wedding singer
2. how to deal
3. a cinderella story
4. freaky friday
5. the grinch :)
6. bad santa
7. pirates of the carribean
8. a walk to remember
9. breakfast club
10. casino
11. hmmmmmm
12. well i just dont knoww

[11 Good bands/artists]
1. something corporate!!!
2. bob marley
3. oar
4. taking back sunday
5. phish
6. death cab for cutie
7. dashboard
8. saves the day
9. kanye :) haha
10. john mellencampppp hehe
11. the eagles

[10 Good friends] -In no order :)
1. maura
2. sammi
3. dana
4. sam
5. katie
6. michaela
7. dan
8. corrente
9. vanessa
10. umm, yea i have no friends

[9 Favorite Foods/drinks]
1. iced coffee from tim hortons
2. tacos!!
3. chicken with broccoli - chinese
4. ELLIOS!
5. double cheeseburger :)
6. chicken caesar salad
7. sierra mist from taco bell / subway
8. tuna wrap
9. strawberry coolata with whipped cream

[8 Things about you physically]
1. short
2. fat
3. dark hair
4. ugly clothing
5. herpes :( heh jk
6. i
7. am
8. ugly

[7 Things that annoy you/that you hate with a fiery passion]
1. DRAMA
2. mauras gut, and the whore
3. family
4. homework/ ms steeles class
5. this kid in my geometry class ha
6. tucan sam
7. couples

[6 Things you want to do before you die]
1. go to europe with maura and dana
2. go to BU/BC with maura and dana
3. own a lawfirm with maura and dana :D
4. teach maura how to cough with her mouth closed / no lazy eye / no gayness
5. make sammi smile!
6. road tripppppp

[5 Things you wear daily]
1. clothes
2. makeup
3. AE bracelet thing
4. ring
5. ae clogs hehh

[4 Shows you watch]
1. the oc
2. laguna beach
3. the real world
4. anything on 44

[3 Cool Celebrities]
1. xzibit heh :D
2. chad michael murray
3. ry cab!

[2 People on LJ that you’ve kissed]
1. heh heh heh
2. i do not know

[1 person you could spend the rest of your life with]
1. besides maura? HAHAHA jay eff kay.. dont know

lessthan_beth @ 2004-11-02T19:35:00

2004-11-03T00:45:13Z

wow the past few days have been awesomee. i love my friends so much, you guys know who you are. "clearly our customs are different!" you guys are awesome ha

i love shopping as well! i went yesterday after school and got a few thingsss... i want to go back to the mall soon though. and as for school, school still sucks, and it always will .. just gotta deal i suppose. 1/4 done :D and its almost christmas. im lovin life right about now ha. GAH i forgot i was updating! out yuhpayce1

lessthan_beth @ 2004-10-31T09:55:00

2004-10-31T15:02:37Z

heeeyyyy. i havent updated in awhilee. probably like a day ha. but. went to a volleyball game with everyone a few days ago, then went to another one with sammi. and school has been retarded like usual. umm went to katies, then football game with her michaela and corrente. hung out with sammi againnn. umm after the game steven came over and we watched laguna beach because we love that show ha. yesterday went to the mall with sammi.. saw vanessa! and corrente and katie and their scituate boys. and ahhhh got wicked coool AE bracelets haha. so excited. thenn my dad picked me up from sammis and took me to danas, then jeff took us to thayer street. kind of. haha. then applebees. then came hommme. nowww i need to go get ready and such. peace outtttt

"well sooner or later this cold
it's gonna break, so our hands'll be warm again
but all I want is not to need you now
and sooner or later this code
it's gonna break and our words will be heard again
but all I want are vows of silence now..."

:(

2004-10-27T16:51:13Z

I’m not letting you check out.
You will beat this starting now.
And you will always be around.
I’m there to monitor your breathing.
I will watch you while you’re sleeping.
I will keep you safe and sound.

need you like water in my lungs

2004-10-25T23:23:47Z

asdfghjkllllll;:/

my laptop broke! or.. it wont let me on AIM.. or the internet.. i dont know. so yeah im being bitched at for that. im on my moms computer, but shes been yelling because she doesn't want me on it because i "damage" it. i dont knowww. anyway, i just did mine and mikes spanish projects, andd my capstone journals. go fucking team ! hoo rah. yuh payce 1

dana 5342: im gonna get a cracklattin
beth 3071: alright lol
dana 5342: in the words of D.F.
beth 3071: AHAHA
beth 3071: MY HERO
dana 5342: MINE TOO!
dana 5342: omg today,
dana 5342: she put a heater in the back of the classroom bc one of the boys asked for it
dana 5342: and hahahah he put a nickel on the heater
dana 5342: and it got hot, then he threw it
dana 5342: and she picked it up and was like HOT MOMMA

7 months till my bdayy:)

2004-10-23T18:15:33Z

hmm lately things have been alright.. went to a volleyball game with maura amanda cait jocelyn and casey ... went to newport creamery after school with them another time.. um went to the mall with maura and dana and to see surviving christmas. oaker cleanup or whatever this morning, wicked cold.. 8 am until 2 but i left at 1.. yeahhh we had to clean the whole campus. had fun with aim and chels, became friends with this kid josh haha. now im wicked cold. and i have a lotta homework this weekenddd. supposed to go to alex's party buttttt no ride. right. whatever. i hate school. peace out.

we're always holding, holding out
and that's what got us here in the first place
you should have never come here alone
you should have never bothered at all (bothered at all)

scream older and wiser still filled with resentment
we get it, we get it oh...
(i haven't been happier since)